From Air Man

Fly guy said, "It has taken me awhile to arrange all my thoughts so here it goes. 1st I am not erasing you from my phone. 2nd I never played you. 3rd I consider you more then a friend. I am not erasing you from my phone because I still like you, I was upfront with you from the beginning. I think you are amazing and I have only met you a few times. You give off a good vibe. Yes we had sex.... and it was fucking amazing, no lie best I have had had. You smelt so good, and your body felt so smooth against mine. I consider that a very special moment. You might feel as if I played you but it just kind of happened. I like texting with you but I don't like feeling you were giving off when I didn't text you back within a certain amount of time. Like I have said before when I am here I just focus on what I do here. I hardly talk on the phone and text all that much anyway so give me a little break on that ok. I would like to be in a relationship with you ok, its just something I am not even thinking about until I move back to Cali ok? I don't want you to get upset if i don't text for a few days or get back to you right away. that is what boyfriends and girlfriends do. sometimes I just dnt want to talk ya know. Jessica you are incredibly beautiful and intelligent and your the perfect woman a guy could want ok. You have my deepest apologies ok."

I have no idea really what to say to this message that he sent me.
Every single word on this message, i have question for....
Really hard to believe what he said...cuz i don't know what he wants from me anymore.

At The Club

Been to some club...recently
the most recent, The Social, Sacramento
wack- the DJ was wack- it was like high school, retro crap
I mean i like listening to all kinds of music, but in a certain atmosphere of the club, some music is inappropriate
when i go to the club,
I do not go there to get all sloppy drunk like all them other bitches who can't handle their own liquor intake,
I do not go to the club to guys, hell no,
I go because I like to listen to mixes and dance
Do I like to dance with boys, yes...
I think sometime when there is a bad DJ, you just have to simply drink more so u sometimes don't even notice the ugly mixes they playing.

Just real talk-
I hate when I go to the club and pay and they playing ugly songs you can't barely dance to.

Recover

No matter how many guys I meet this year, I think this year, 2010 is going to be my recovery period of my life.
Guys will come and go in my life,
but in the end, it will always be about my life

My life, I am rebuilding
constructing a new path in my life
This year is about setting new goals, maybe a new career
It starts by focusing in my studies
My dad had told me this weekend that not to think about him or my mom's best interest and not to think about that my future is for them- he told me that this is your moment, "this is for you... you do it for you and nobody else
and when u have reached that, then you will help your family, but right now, help yourself succeed; for you, only you."
He said there shouldn't be any boys in my life right now, he straight up and said, "NO!"
So, the only thing that I can do is listen and think to myself that I can do this, I can rebuild my life and recover from all these pain that some people have caused and move forward to my dream

KEEP MOVING FORWARD

I keep moving forward, I will recover

Guys are Full of S***

they make u really believe that they are nice
they make you believe that they will take good care of you, because the the ex didn't
they make u comfortable enough so they can get what they want, which 80 percent of woman do give in to the pressure = sex.
They brake you
they play you,
they play games
too many playing around

really why?